I got a cold again, in everytimes when the weather changes how shit. I can't sleep any more though. I'm so bored and feel sick right now. I went out with my sis yesterdays evening but I had to come back alone. I felt so sick, and it rained hard outside I could wait but I didn't, stupid? I really needed to get home I walked in the rain (crazy me didn't run). I felt so cold and it got worst. I didn't feel I'd done anything though I did so many things. I thought I must be crazy, I made myself sick. I had no idea what to do I felt nothing but cold. I couldn't stop cough all the night. Just dry cough and anyway I could sleep, so long...

I just feel so bad right now. I don't know what to do so here my hands are typing these stuffs. Maybe I want to remain myself crazy... I feel only empty inside.