Tuesday 13^rdMay 2003

jo : are you there?
jo : Carley?
carley : yes
carley : its me :)
jo : what are you doing?
carley : talking to you, singing
carley : you?
jo : talking to you
jo : how are you?
carley : i am good
carley : you?
jo : not well
carley : still no doctors? :(
jo : i tried to go
jo : i fell the ladder
carley : oh no :((
carley : you must be so sore:(
jo : don't make me cry please
carley : i wont
carley : you were in my dream the other night :o
jo : really? how?
carley : i saw you, but we hadn't met, i knew it was you. i kept watching you and i knew it was you, but i was scared to go up to you
jo : why you're scared me?
carley : i was scared you'd walk away
jo : i don't understand
carley : me either
jo : am i so frightful to you?
carley : no no
carley : dreams mean something else
jo : i don't understand...
jo : but if the person you saw in your dream is real me, i am sure she never will walk away from you
jo : because of two reasons
jo : she do love you so much,
jo : and she can't walk away right now
carley : relax jo :)
carley : you were buying medicine :p
jo : what?
jo : what medicine?
carley : i dont know what for : p
jo : ?
carley : just relax jo
jo : i don't understand you Carley
jo : you always make me confused
carley : i am sorry
jo : no its not you fault
jo : i didn't mean like that
jo : you won't tell me what happened with you yesterday, really?
jo : i shouldn't tell you my sick...
carley : WHY NOT????
jo : i won't tell you again
carley : Your picture lays next to my computer I’ve covered it up Since we decided to only be friends. I still love you so much. And every time I see you, memories flash back. I want to hold you close, but can’t. So I push you away. I tell you not to live on hope for us getting back together. But secretly I’m holding on to the dream. I just wont tell you. I let you think I’m moving on. I’m still secretly so deeply in love with you. I try to tell my mind not to think of you. But at night, I still call your name. Because I miss you so much.
carley : yes or i will be mad  x
jo : Carley i'm sorry please!
jo : i never knew that before
jo : i'm sorry
carley : what????
jo : you still inlove with Andrea?
jo : why don't you call him again, he must come back to you i am sure
jo : please Carley
jo : don't push yourself like this
carley : sorry
carley : jo
carley : my pc froze
carley : can you email me the poem
jo : the poem?
carley : what i wrote you
carley : yesa
jo : ok please wait
carley : thank you :)
jo : i've sent it, right?
carley : i will check
carley : no
carley : i wrote you a poem on im just before my pc crashed
jo : ok sorry i will
carley : thank you :)
jo : i like it
jo : it makes me cried
carley : why?
jo : A very sad relationship poem
jo : i don't know
jo : are you crying?
carley : no
jo : i can't take it
carley : what?
jo : i don't understand why do you have to do like this!
carley : to write? to what?
jo : to keep yourself away from him!
jo : i can't take it!
jo : you are hurting yourself...
jo : and him, and me
jo : please answer me Carley i don't understand
carley : i hurt you, no...bye :(
carley : go away jo :(
jo : no Carley
jo : please!
jo : it hurt me so much if you go from me!
jo : and push me away...
jo : Carley please...
jo : i can't be happy if you are not!
jo : please Carley please...please...
jo : you decided it firmly yes?
jo : if so i wouldn't say anything again
jo : please answer me i need to know
jo : i won't say anything offend your decision again
jo : yahoo is shit!!!!!!!
jo : please answer me Carley
jo : i will tell you about how i am
jo : but i need you to tell me too
jo : if you don't
jo : i will think you don't love or care about me
jo : there's no reason for me to try to get better then
jo : well, hope me get worser and die tonight
jo : Bye Carley...
jo : i forgot to tell its not ur fault, so don't have to care about it
jo : Bye
jo : Carley i am sorry :(
jo : i can't sleep
jo : i cough up blood it's so scared
jo : i can't sleep
jo : Carley if you don't go bed please answer me
jo : please
jo : God...
carley : sorry jo
jo : i am sorry
jo : i am sorry about what i've said
jo : i'm so stupid
carley : leave it
jo : are you ok?
jo : i'm sorry i will not do it again
jo : i'm really tired
jo : i try to run to my desk
jo : i'm sorry, how are you?
jo : God...
jo : i can't stop
jo : Carley?
jo : i need to meet you
jo : i will try to go the docter again
jo : please be still i will try again
jo : i will go the docter tomorrow
jo : i must be better i need to meet you
jo : please say something encourage me... if i'm worth for it
carley : sorry my mum wanted me
carley : please go to the doctors
jo : thank you carley
jo : thank you so much
carley : please go for me
jo : i will go for you
jo : ((hugs))
jo : thank you
carley : ((hugs you tightly))
jo : ((hugs))
jo : my leg is very sore... i hope it'll get better tomorrow
carley : i hope so
carley : is it bruised?
jo : no it's broken
carley : GO TO THE DOCTOR NOW
jo : i can't
jo : it's too late
carley : the hospital :(
jo : no i can't walk right now...
carley : ring someone
jo : i will go by myself tomorrow
jo : don't worry Carley...
jo : it must be better
jo : i hope..
jo : can't you sleep?
jo : why i cough up blood...?
jo : do you know?
carley : your sick and need help thats why
carley : go to the hospital or i will be VERY mad
jo : i will Carley but i can't go now please don't be mad
jo : dad said i just got a cold
jo : and it's not zars i know
jo : Carley do you want to sleep
carley : no
jo : i will ring my aunt
jo : i hope she will come...
carley : thank you
jo : so you can go to bed...
carley : i hope she comes
jo : so please wait for a long time... i will try
carley : i will wait for you :)
jo : J.J will come here in an hour
jo : you can go to bed now
carley : THANK YOU!!!
jo : thank you Carley
carley : i dont want to
jo : ...why?
carley : i will wait for J.J
jo : please Carley it's so late there
jo : he will come for sure
carley : i will wait
jo : why you have to do like this..?
jo : no one ever do this with me
carley : i can't spell right now :">
jo : thank you so much Carley
carley : Even if i sleep on my keyboard i am still here :p
jo : uh you make me cry again
carley : why?
jo : i am so glad
jo : too glad
carley : (hugs)
carley : what did you tell J.J?
jo : i said my leg got worst and i was sick
carley : he said
carley : ?
jo : he said a little, but he will come for sure
carley : i am glad, was he sleeping?
carley : I'm not sure of the time difference :(
jo : heres 22:00 now, he doesn't sleep
jo : i rang my aunt, she wasn't come...
carley : so theres 2.30 hours difference
carley : why not?
jo : yes, you should go bed soon
jo : i don't know
jo : she's always busy
carley : i am sorry :(
jo : sorry what?
carley : she couldn't come
jo : its not your fault you don't have to be sorry for her
jo : and she's always i understand that
jo : you'll still wait?
carley : yes
carley : *falling asleep*
jo : ((hugs))
jo : i wish my voice is fine so i can sing
jo : make you sleep
jo : please go to bed
jo : i worry about you too
carley : no :p
jo : do you love me Carley?
carley : please dont
jo : what? why?
carley : i am going to bed before i sleep on my keyboard
carley : tell me what happens
jo : what happens?
jo : J.J doesn't come, but he will soon
carley : i have to be up in 6hrs
carley : 5.5 hrs
jo : i don't understand why are you doing this.
carley : i am falling asleep i need to go and get up in 5hours
jo : you can go
jo : Good night Carley
carley : bye Jo
jo : bye Carley...